Guys guys London is a very weird place to live in.
Now, this is the beginning / and the beginning is always held back by a certain kind of hard / it’s like no one has ever felt like this before / except for the scars across our hearts
My friend made me a mixtape, and i have no idea what i’m listening to, but it’s super awesome!
All the things i wish i had said before i couldn’t anymore. Like how i liked your eyes best because of the way you looked at people you loved. How they’d lit up every time.
I miss RVIVR. Come back!
You know when you get new headphones and you have those first few minutes when you’re like, this is a whole new level of awesome everything sounds so good
ANGELS OF THE GET THROUGH
by Andrea Gibson
This year has been the hardest of your whole life.
so hard you cannot see a future, most days.
The pain is bigger than anything else.
Takes up the whole horizon, no matter where you are.
You feel unsafe you feel unsaved.
Your past so present you can feel your baby teeth.
Sitting on the couch, you swear your feet don’t reach the floor.
You keep remembering the first time you saw a bird’s nest.
Held together by an old shoe lace and scraps of a plastic bag
You knew the home of a person could be built like that
A lot of things you’d rather throw away
You keep worrying you’re taking up too much space.
I wish you’d let yourself be the milky way
Remember when I told you I was gonna become a full time poet
And you paid my rent for three years?
Angel of the get through.
All living is storm chasing.
Every good heart has lost its roof.
Let all the walls collapse at your feet,
Scream timber when they ask you how you are.
Fine is the suckiest word. It is the opposite of HERE
Here is the only place left on the map
Here is where you learn laughter can go extinct
and come back
I am already building the museum
For every treasure you unearth in the rock bottom
Holy vulnerable cliff
God mason, heart heavier than all the bricks
Say this is what the pain made of you
An open open open road
An avalanche of feel it all
Don’t ever let anyone tell you, you are too much
Or it has been too long
Whatever keeps the stutterer from stuttering when he sings a song
you are made of that thing
That unbreakable note
That photography of you at five years old,
the year you ran away from school,
because you wanted to go home.
You are almost there.
You are the same compass you have always been
You are the same friend who never left my side
during my worst year
You caught every tantrum I threw
with your bare hands
chucked it back at the blood moon
said its okay, everyone’s survival looks a little bit like death
I wrote a poem called “say yes” while I was cursing you
For not letting me go.
Best friend, this is what we do.
We gather each other up.
We say, the cup is half
yours and half mine.
We say alone is the last place you will ever be.
We say tonight lets stay inside reading pema chodron
while everyone else is out on the town
pema will say “only to the extent we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation
can that which is indestructible in us be found”
You’ll say Pema is so wise.
And I’ll say yes she is, and we are too.
Angels of the get through. We are too.
Thanks to Brooke for posting a picture of the words that Andrea gave her at a show.
The RVIVR show was soooo much fun!
One of the best ever, i smiled the whole way through.